alive//breathing

With all these new social networking websites like Twitter and Tumblr, im glad I still have my blog. Tumblr is just like blogspot in a sense you can do all the same things. And Twitter well...whats the point? Anywho, I have had a lot on my mind lately and seeing as I can't really talk about it with anyone (because these things aren't really conversation starters) im just going to dump it all here. Thank goodness no one reads this.

I'm stoked to be taking my advertising classes finally next semester. I'm ready to feel like I am actually DOING something, rather than going through the motions. I have been really enjoying my ,ENGL 391 class simply because I'm learning skills in Photoshop & Dreamweaver, things that will help me in the FUTURE! If I think really hard, im sure all these other classes i am taking are sure to help me some how. But for now, I'm just going to dismiss it all.

I wish I had something that would hook up to my mind and as I think things it will just filter down a tube onto a paper or screen. I don't know why I have such a hard time writing things out that I see so perfectly in my head. I think that is one thing that hinders me from becoming a great painter...a magnificent painter. I can never put things down clearly. That and thinking outside the box is a bit...difficult.

There are so many things I want to do with my life, speaking of painting. I want to write a book that people will actually read. I want to paint something BRILLIANT that people will be wishing they have thought of. I want to actually say music is my life, I want to be fully immersed in it. I want to book shows, talk to musicians, put out a zine, be able to unclog my ears and listen! I was so enthusiastic about getting into the local scene back in Virginia Beach. Let's be real though, there isn't really one and if there is, it is made up of a bunch of kids who could really care less about it.

But back to things I want to do

I want to travel a lot before I have kids. ALOT. I want my house to be made up of exotic gifts. I DO want kids. I want them to experience so much. I don't want to hinder their creativity at all. I want them to take their education seriously, I want them to want to learn. To be smart. To be the exact opposite of how I treat all this. I am so lucky to have my mom paying for this, I am spoiled in a sense. I'm taking advantage of it.

Back to the local scene, I like hardcore. I really do. But I'm not all about promoting hate. Yeah the world is shitty. But saying shit like STAY COLD or I CANT HATE ENOUGH all that bullshit. Grow up guys. Walking around with a chip on your shoulder doesn't get you anywhere. Im not saying walk around with rainbows shooting out of your ass, but let's be real. I'm not a hateful person, I don't get why getting stoked on hate works. All in all, it's a bit ironic.

I think I'm done with my rants. For now. Stay tuned.