My birthday is on saturday and dont get me wrong, im stoked in all...but this growing up business blows.
i wish i still had that childlike wonder, to be at awe with the world. how did everything lose its glamour? why have i numbed my dreams, so that instead of wanting to be something interesting like a writer or the owner of a record store, i have dreams of someday getting that call from Dominoes that says im hired?
my mom was always right.
"enjoy your youth while you can..."
i was too busy trying to be more than that...
Sunday, October 11, 2009
Thursday, October 1, 2009
4am//hard times
im cold, my sinuses are on the fritz. cant sleep, but thinking is beyond my capacity.
im so dependent on you now, ive become a hypocrite. you are my addiction. i always told myself i would never be dependent on another person. i was my own person and i could make it by myself in this world.
that was before i met you.
that was before i realized its okay to lean on someone.
i apologize to anyone i ever said was "weak" because they were in love.
who let love control them.
maybe love, or the lack there of, is the force controlling this world. there is no such thing as hate. there is no such as black or darkness.
just an absence of love
just an absence of light
.
im so dependent on you now, ive become a hypocrite. you are my addiction. i always told myself i would never be dependent on another person. i was my own person and i could make it by myself in this world.
that was before i met you.
that was before i realized its okay to lean on someone.
i apologize to anyone i ever said was "weak" because they were in love.
who let love control them.
maybe love, or the lack there of, is the force controlling this world. there is no such thing as hate. there is no such as black or darkness.
just an absence of love
just an absence of light
.
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